update

"REST is a good thing" is how the song goes, right? If it did, It would totally be the anthem to my road to recovery. Mainly cause its the only thing I can DO! Can you tell I am not bitter at all? This has just been more frustrating than I would prefer. If you know me, I have this weird way of being a complete balance of free-as-a-bird and gotta-take-control, its odd. But if ever my free-as-a-bird should kick in, shouldn't it be now? ohh.... oooffff course noot. that would make life too simple.

I just haven't particularly loved the idea of completely flipping my lifestyle and schedule upside-down, backwards and in slow-motion for the POSSIBLE chance I will recover of this "incurable" disease... oh pah-lease. I've been waaaay worse. I can name 3 times off the top of my head... 6th grade Bronchitis/Pneumonia, the 15x I had strep in high school or my 6 month ACL rehabilitation. this is like eating cake! (speaking of Mary Morgan.. her and her KitchenAid Mixer, Loretta, make magic happen in our kitchen, for that I am so thankful! The cake tonight made me moan out loud, I am not even ashamed to admit that!!! It was so dadgum fluffy, I almost died!) I have to make preventative decisions, like resting in my room for 12 solid hours because I hope its best. I dont even think I can explain it... it is just weird.

Let me share another something: I feel shunned by society. drastic? ok, maybe but Im not sure if my actual description could even do my unpleasant feeling justice.

I almost wish I wouldn't have blogged about it then maybe being around people could be my own discretion, not that of everyone's fears. I mean, Obviously, no one wants to contract mono but seriously people, I do not have leprosy! It is NOT airborne, I basically have to spit straight in your mouth or share a drink to pass it on. Dont worry, I wont try either of those... mono or not!

On a more important note, I am so very thankful for those people who have stepped into the "danger zone", cared for me or called to check up during all of this. I hope to show my appreciation with tons of energy as soon as possible! First, Mom, you're the greatest of all time. i probably would be dead on the side of the interstate without you, that is true statement!

In conclusion, rest is doing this body good. I am starting to feel like myself again. Slow and steady wins the race, right? I guess. I wouldnt know! this slow, chunky girl rarely won. Pretty sure there was a time in high school basketball conditioning where I recognized the backside of Lanie better, thats all I saw from 1/2 a lap behind!

Good night. enough ranting for this basket case, just felt you deserved an update! Headed to bed to enjoy some TylenolPM-induced dreams that are sure to add plenty of craziness to my story. gahreat.

P.S. Elizabeth Yokley, props for officially documenting the only photo taken of mono-Libby. You were just so sweet and excited to see me alive I couldnt turn down a photo request! Love you for that. Still cant believe I am posting it on my blog .. guess thats just how much I cant wait to be friends again!